sheeeshh. i like nt really recovered frm that incident. its agitating!!

although everything seems to be normal, i know things are going behind my back. it always happens. things never come to a satisfactory. sucks. so i just behave like i DONT noe anythin and i jus ignore it. Cus if i am wanting to noe everything i may jus die of a major shock. So i rather look everythin on the surface and just pretend i never knew anythin, and SMILE SMILE and let it be. simple. i've given in enough. i've tried. bt there's a limit. i hate compromising with others feelings already. i needa put my point straight onto your face some day. but that wld be too nasty. so i am just gonna bury it and move on. I think i have better things to worry on. Like my studies, council, social life and etc. so pls, stop it, cus i have decided to jus ignore. so iff u're gonna bark and hurt ur mouth, i am nt gonna listen anyway. so yeapp in other words, look at urself first, then be a commendator my dearr.

Cus if i am going to live in teh shadows of ones comfort, i may jus taken advantage of. But no matter what happens, i try to be happy. Cus there's no point in crying and blahing abt it. EMO is not my thing. It doesent relief pain. Being happy and helping urself to smile, is just gonna help me heal my wounds.

pacifying myself is like smthin i have to do daily.

horrible life dont u think..?

~okay i dun wanna talk abt tis alr. it jus gets on my last nerve.

AND HEY YOU COME ONLINE. CUS I AM MISSING U DARN BADLY ALR.